layout

have worked out how to fix the layout so itll view in any res in any browser. just have to get around to it...patience ppl

ne-yo so sick

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger then this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
Let it go
Turning off the radio

Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?

Sweet

k i know it prolli doesnt work in any other resolution other than 1024x768 pixels but this layout looks pretty sweet if youre running that. quite happy with this one. now all i need to do is learn enough html that itll resize when you resize your window and center according to your resolution. sounds complicated so ill leave that one for another day.

just seeing if you still watch me...or if you even still care...

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words
Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cos I'd already know
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words

ezzy chan

Whoa! My love, my darling,
I hunger for your touch,
A long, Lonely time.
And time goes by, so slowly,
And time can do so much,
Are you still mine?
I need your love.
I need your love.
God speed your love to me.



Lonely rivers flow to the sea, to the sea,
To the open arms of the sea.
Lonely rivers sigh, wait for me, wait for me,
I'll be coming home, wait for me.



Whoa! My love, my darling,
I hunger, hunger!, for your love,
For love. Lonely time.
And time goes by, so slowly,
And time can do so much,
Are you still mine?
I need your love.
I need your love.
God speed your love to me.










miss you, you know!

i need to get through this

one night to be confused
one night to speed up truth
we had a promise made
four hands and then away

both under influence
we had the divine sent
to know what to say
mind is a razorblade

to call for hands of above
to lean on
wouldn't be good enough
for me, no

one night of magic rush
the start a simple touch
one night to push and scream
and then relief

ten days of perfect tunes
the colors red and blue
we had a promise made
we were in love

to call for hands of above
to lean on
wouldn't be good enough
for me, no

to call for hands of above
to lean on
wouldn't be good enough

and you, you knew the hands of the devil
and you, kept us awake with wolf teeth
sharing different heartbeats
in one night

to call for hands of above
to lean on
wouldn't be good enough
for me, no

to call for hands of above
to lean on
wouldn't be good enough
for me, no

jose gonzalez - heartbeats

i like the song from the sony bravia ad...you know the one with all the coloured rubber bouncy balls? so i downloaded it. too bad i cant download all those bouncy balls.

its not nice to feel like this day after day for such a long time. it gets to a point where you want to give up. everything was perfect for me for so long and its amazing how a single person can come along and ruin all of that whether intentionally or not. its too hard to trust again and theres too much pressure on me to be someone im not. even with so much heartache i dont want to leave because i love him too much. i want my life back the way it was without the complications. i need to feel whole again. i need him. hes the only one who makes me better and when im with him i cant forgive him for how hes making me feel right now. when im away from him im pining for him and yet seeing him breaks my heart. god i love him.

i havent eaten again. i didnt yesterday either. i cooked and took a mouthful and was too depressed to take another. its in the fridge covered in gladwrap. someone will eat it. i havent drank either. thats the second time in about three days where i havent wanted to eat or drink. im hungry and i take a bite or a sip and then feel sick. hes what sustains me. without him every thing else could just be dust. im an empty shell without him and yet its taking so long to forgive him for this pain. i need to forgive him because i need him. its getting better not worse. i dont want him to leave me and yet i have a feeling he will. i cant expect him to wait forever for me to be whole again. i just wish he understood he was the one who tore me apart. shattered my life.

i want him. to own him. to posess him. to trust him. to love him. to be his. for this shit to just go away. i want him to fix it. i beg him to fix it. im not anyone without him.

sleep would be nice

okay i cant sleep so ive updated the blog. somehow i managed to delete my old code so the links will be out of date until i can be bothered fixing them.

been so down lately. was reading pearls blog about how wonderful her life is and i must say im pretty jealous!

have noticed people i dont know leaving comments in order to plug their blogs. if i dont know you i wont visit your blog and i can assure you no one else who visits me will either so go ahead and waste your time if you want but youll get nothing out of it.

imma go play with squishy.

Chinese Takeaway Anyone?!

I'm sorry..I just couldn't resist.

anyone got a spare ak47?

...yeah thats right... i need a fricking semi automatic of some description so i can wipe out those little kinder buggers counterstrike style!

KINDER IS SO EVIL...i constantly tell everyone this and everyone nods and laughs and "oh dear thats no good"'s without even getting why its evil!

as ive discussed with pearl...imma poison the cordial!!!